We have been traveling hard for 2 days and I am going to make them get on the trailer again tomorrow. Tomorrow it is only a 5 hour trip which isn't so bad.
I am going to hate myself come Monday. I don't have internet at my new place yet. I might have to settle for DSL. Adam is going to try to get a hold of me and for some reason (he broke his headset or the people he is with are sleeping etc etc) he will only be able to internet me and I will be internet free.
I am trying so hard to think of positive things about next year when Adam comes back and all I can think about is how I have no idea how we are going to make this work. So today in the car I decided that I am not going to think about it anymore. I am not going to wreck this amazing opportunity I have in Texas for the next 7 months with worry about my future. I have to do this for myself or I know I will regret it forever. So I have to use this time that I am not tied to the whims of the army wisely. Once Adam comes back I know we will be tethered at the hip and I will be practically unable to be away from him for many many reasons. I think it will be good for me to be as independant as I can before Adam gets back.
When Adam left for Iraq I gained weight practically uncontrollably and I think I am ready to address this bad habit into which I have allowed myself to participate. I notice that a lot of women try to lose weight during their significant other's deployment. So in that spirit, I am not going to try to lose weight per se, I am just going to try to eat more healthily and get more exercise and hopefully that will impact my waist line more positively than my current eating habits :D. We'll see. Currently no promises. So tired.I thought I would be talking to Adam again by now, but apparently that is not the case, so i will leave a bunch of messages around the internet to remind him that I am thinking of him.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
What Good May Come...
I was recently watching Signs, and in case you haven't seen the movie Mel Gibson plays a reverend who has lost his faith. His brother, played by Joaquin Phoenix, says, "Can't you be like you used to be [meaning he wants Mel to act like a reverend again]? I could use some comfort." Mel's character explains that there are two types of people in the world, one type that believe things happen for a reason and they can count on God. Phoenix professes his belief in that there is someone looking out for him in particular. Mel's character talks about type two who see life as a series of coincidences and they know they are on their own. Finally Phoenix asks, "What type are you?" and Mel smiles and says, "Are you comforted?" Phoenix concedes he is, and so Mel says,"Then what does it matter?"
I bring up this blurb because I was thinking about the blog I wanted to write today and the topic that came to mind related to that passage. I had a minor meltdown today of being tired of traveling alone, of being unsure about my place in the world and getting really angry about Adam being gone, to the point where I was almost ready to throw things.
Recently I have been talking to several friends about their long term commitments (relationships and marriages) and how they seem to be headed south. This really suprised me because I thought these people would stay together forever. They have children; they are committed. Apparently this is not so, nothing is written in stone. I mean I guess I do intuitively know that, but I thought they were above the "system" or what not.
I am the first type. I believe that things happen for a reason. Maybe Adam being gone makes us try harder and is setting up a better foundation for us in the long run. Maybe Adam being gone makes us have a better appreciation for the other. Maybe Adam being gone teaches us to compromise in ways we would have been inflexible for any other reason. Maybe if Adam hadn't been deployed we wouldn't have tried hard enough and we would have fallen apart again. I think that some of the above statements have some truth in them. Maybe I can find less to be angry and frustrated about, and more to appreciate. And in the long run if it did just turn out to be a coincidence, and all my reasons where just made up and I am alone: Would it matter? No probably not.
I bring up this blurb because I was thinking about the blog I wanted to write today and the topic that came to mind related to that passage. I had a minor meltdown today of being tired of traveling alone, of being unsure about my place in the world and getting really angry about Adam being gone, to the point where I was almost ready to throw things.
Recently I have been talking to several friends about their long term commitments (relationships and marriages) and how they seem to be headed south. This really suprised me because I thought these people would stay together forever. They have children; they are committed. Apparently this is not so, nothing is written in stone. I mean I guess I do intuitively know that, but I thought they were above the "system" or what not.
I am the first type. I believe that things happen for a reason. Maybe Adam being gone makes us try harder and is setting up a better foundation for us in the long run. Maybe Adam being gone makes us have a better appreciation for the other. Maybe Adam being gone teaches us to compromise in ways we would have been inflexible for any other reason. Maybe if Adam hadn't been deployed we wouldn't have tried hard enough and we would have fallen apart again. I think that some of the above statements have some truth in them. Maybe I can find less to be angry and frustrated about, and more to appreciate. And in the long run if it did just turn out to be a coincidence, and all my reasons where just made up and I am alone: Would it matter? No probably not.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Update
I made a comic of Adam today in my 5 hour wait in the airport. I think its cute, click on the word comic underneath the picture to see it big....
Oh yeah, I added some more links....
Oh yeah, I added some more links....
Just Miserable
So here I am the DFW airport hanging out, waiting for my flight when I hear this cheering and yelling. I look over less then two gates away an army plane of GIs is deboarding and all the happy families and wifes and everyone is cheering for the soldiers coming home. I get up and leave the gate area. I can't seem to stop crying. I knew they flew in here, but I didn't realize they would be so close. All these happy family get their soldiers back. I want mine back to. I guess that's not the way it works, today's not my day and I get to wait until another day.
I want to happy for them, and I am, but that doesn't make it any easier to see the soldier and hear the cheers. Now they are all going to come flooding by me. I get to watch them head off to where ever they are going to continue on their journeys. I wonder how the soldiers feel about their deboarding party. I bet it's hard for some know they still have two more plane flights until they get to their home. I know I would have a hard time with it, but I am really sensitive to things like that. Oh well, my flight doesn't leave for a while so I think I will hide out a couple of gates away until things die down a little and I can get the crying under control. People are staring at me, but I don't really care because they would be crying to I am sure.
I want to happy for them, and I am, but that doesn't make it any easier to see the soldier and hear the cheers. Now they are all going to come flooding by me. I get to watch them head off to where ever they are going to continue on their journeys. I wonder how the soldiers feel about their deboarding party. I bet it's hard for some know they still have two more plane flights until they get to their home. I know I would have a hard time with it, but I am really sensitive to things like that. Oh well, my flight doesn't leave for a while so I think I will hide out a couple of gates away until things die down a little and I can get the crying under control. People are staring at me, but I don't really care because they would be crying to I am sure.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
The Roller Coaster
It's really late to me and I am really tired. I just finished driving from Colorado Springs to Weatherford, TX and I probably should just go to sleep. However I find if I tell myself I will blog in the morning whatever I was thinking about doesn't seem important enough to blog. On top of that, when you sit in the car on empty roads for 11 straight you can't help, but think. So I have been thinking all day in the uhaul about everything and I would definitely say that I think about Adam and stuff pertaining to Adam more than I think about anything else.
Dating Adam is like riding a roller coaster, sometimes we are going uphill of riding downward, sometimes it's exhilarating and sometimes it's scary. Have you been on a roller coaster and you just don't feel like you are strapped in enough? Like if you weren't holding on for dear life you could slip out of the restraints and fall? I feel like that sometimes. I am committed to riding the relationship out, but sometimes I feel like if I don't hold on tightly that it is going to slip away from me. That's a worrisome feeling. During my driving today I couldn't quite pin down why I was feeling that way. I have felt sort of disconnected because Adam and I were trying to find a way to talk since a box of ammo fell on his skype headset and it doesn't work currently. So after being frustrated by the lack of good internet, when we finally did talk I forgot all the stuff I was going to tell him and I didn't really have much to say. This a very irritating cycle. I woke up in the middle of the might and I saw he was online, but since I needed to get on the road today I told him that I couldn't talk because it was 2 am. He wasn't on this morning when I got up, no message, so I am assuming a black out, and no message tonight. Some days it seems almost more than I can take. So angry making sometimes, I hate the whole situation top to bottom. I hate the military, I hate the fact that he signed up, I hate having to move by myself, I hate being tired and only getting to talk to him by im, I hate when things break and I have to help him replaced them because finding the right thing is important then waiting for him to get it, I am just fed up with the entire system!
Just have to look for the next big uphill on the roller coaster, it's out there you have to hold on for dear life until you get there...
Dating Adam is like riding a roller coaster, sometimes we are going uphill of riding downward, sometimes it's exhilarating and sometimes it's scary. Have you been on a roller coaster and you just don't feel like you are strapped in enough? Like if you weren't holding on for dear life you could slip out of the restraints and fall? I feel like that sometimes. I am committed to riding the relationship out, but sometimes I feel like if I don't hold on tightly that it is going to slip away from me. That's a worrisome feeling. During my driving today I couldn't quite pin down why I was feeling that way. I have felt sort of disconnected because Adam and I were trying to find a way to talk since a box of ammo fell on his skype headset and it doesn't work currently. So after being frustrated by the lack of good internet, when we finally did talk I forgot all the stuff I was going to tell him and I didn't really have much to say. This a very irritating cycle. I woke up in the middle of the might and I saw he was online, but since I needed to get on the road today I told him that I couldn't talk because it was 2 am. He wasn't on this morning when I got up, no message, so I am assuming a black out, and no message tonight. Some days it seems almost more than I can take. So angry making sometimes, I hate the whole situation top to bottom. I hate the military, I hate the fact that he signed up, I hate having to move by myself, I hate being tired and only getting to talk to him by im, I hate when things break and I have to help him replaced them because finding the right thing is important then waiting for him to get it, I am just fed up with the entire system!
Just have to look for the next big uphill on the roller coaster, it's out there you have to hold on for dear life until you get there...
Friday, October 19, 2007
Close at Hand
Well Adam has become close at hand again (meaning I can talk to him) and I feel as though we have settled into a comfortable routine. We sort of resolved some of the lingering things that had been kind of hanging over our heads and talked for along time last night. That feels really good. All I can say about it is at least the bad days give you a perspective for the good days. Kaylie's boyfriend, Austin, made it home for a while LUCKY GIRL! I am so happy for her, I think being an army significant other you feel joy for people when their significant other comes home in way that make "normal" people confused, but regardless, I think lots of people in their camp will sleep better.
I have decided to go visit Adam's family for whatever time I get off from Thanksgiving. Adam's Mom (Pam) likes to cook and I like to cook so I think Adam can expect cookies in the mail. Plus I know they are the only people who can listen to me talk about Adam 24/7 and not want to kill me at the end of the day. I don't know, it just seems like the right thing to do. Plus then I an tease him about his new car and hang out with his sib-os.
It's a good way to feel close to Adam even though he is far. I know he will feel a little homesick, but then he will have one place to reach us all. Anyways I think that it may be less stressful then hanging with my own family cuz his family doesn't really know stories about me and I won't have to hear the stories about the time I did X, Y, or Z. That will be VERY nice. Plus when you want to visit someone else's family you are committed and I don't mean like being crazy. I mean you know that you aren't think about how awkward it will be if you break up, because those thoughts don't bother your mind any more and that's peace of mind. That's the anchor that makes you feel good about the day to day.
I have decided to go visit Adam's family for whatever time I get off from Thanksgiving. Adam's Mom (Pam) likes to cook and I like to cook so I think Adam can expect cookies in the mail. Plus I know they are the only people who can listen to me talk about Adam 24/7 and not want to kill me at the end of the day. I don't know, it just seems like the right thing to do. Plus then I an tease him about his new car and hang out with his sib-os.
It's a good way to feel close to Adam even though he is far. I know he will feel a little homesick, but then he will have one place to reach us all. Anyways I think that it may be less stressful then hanging with my own family cuz his family doesn't really know stories about me and I won't have to hear the stories about the time I did X, Y, or Z. That will be VERY nice. Plus when you want to visit someone else's family you are committed and I don't mean like being crazy. I mean you know that you aren't think about how awkward it will be if you break up, because those thoughts don't bother your mind any more and that's peace of mind. That's the anchor that makes you feel good about the day to day.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Upbeat but decidedly so
So I realized perusing my blogs of late that I have very upbeat in the blogs which strikes me as quite funny because you think that would reflect that Adam and I have settled into some comfortable state where we aren't arguing and we are coping and yadda yadda! Au contraire! Mostly it has been that the arguments aren't fit for polite company and as much as I am into being candid and brutally honest somethings are really just too personal.
In the broad face of things we have pretty much decided that fighting is pointless, there is absolutely JACK we can do at this point in time. That very logical fact does not always stop us from arguing, but it does allow us to put the argument away and say "lets talk about something else" in a guilt-free manner. I like things that are guilt-free.
We are reading a book together, but the book I chose hits a little close to home sooooo we are careful when we discuss this. We have had a bunch of set backs and honestly 2 days ago the problems and worries seemed really present and I was having a hard time focusing and basically life just sucked. Now I am getting over the things that were throwing me for a loop (like having to move to Texas 100% BY MYSELF!). I have found that for me time fixes just about everything. So yes we have had some pretty unhappy low points, but at the same time I feel like I can say to Adam we knew these really hard days would come. You swallow your bitter pill, pick up the pieces and move on together the best you can. It's ad hoc, but in the scheme of the rest of our lives, it is a drop in the bucket.
Fortunately everything has an upside, and our upside is this: I am hoping that when he gets back the trials and tribulations we have gone through will cement us together, and more "regular" or "normal" problems will seem trivial. That we will have passed a test of rigor that unknown to other couples. That part is comforting.
Adam is unreachable for a while, so here is a little wish of good will to him that he is safe and okay and that he knows I love him dearly and wouldn't trade our relationship for anything in the world. Not even for a cutting championship (though I might be tempted BUT only for a millisecond).
In the broad face of things we have pretty much decided that fighting is pointless, there is absolutely JACK we can do at this point in time. That very logical fact does not always stop us from arguing, but it does allow us to put the argument away and say "lets talk about something else" in a guilt-free manner. I like things that are guilt-free.
We are reading a book together, but the book I chose hits a little close to home sooooo we are careful when we discuss this. We have had a bunch of set backs and honestly 2 days ago the problems and worries seemed really present and I was having a hard time focusing and basically life just sucked. Now I am getting over the things that were throwing me for a loop (like having to move to Texas 100% BY MYSELF!). I have found that for me time fixes just about everything. So yes we have had some pretty unhappy low points, but at the same time I feel like I can say to Adam we knew these really hard days would come. You swallow your bitter pill, pick up the pieces and move on together the best you can. It's ad hoc, but in the scheme of the rest of our lives, it is a drop in the bucket.
Fortunately everything has an upside, and our upside is this: I am hoping that when he gets back the trials and tribulations we have gone through will cement us together, and more "regular" or "normal" problems will seem trivial. That we will have passed a test of rigor that unknown to other couples. That part is comforting.
Adam is unreachable for a while, so here is a little wish of good will to him that he is safe and okay and that he knows I love him dearly and wouldn't trade our relationship for anything in the world. Not even for a cutting championship (though I might be tempted BUT only for a millisecond).
Monday, October 15, 2007
Pan's Labyrinth
So I had a pretty busy, seemingly long day and I am trying to break out of some of my bad habits (ie watching TV all night because I don't wanna deal with the world). I thought I would put on a movie and clean my room. I remembered that I still had all of Adam's DVD's so I was flipping through them and I found Pan's Labyrinth, I had been wanting to see it forever. Well it is not the best choice for cleaning my room because it is subtitled and if your eyes are off the screen you are missing dialog, even I can't read that fast.
I don't know about other army significant others, but I have basically sworn off all war movies, shows that talk about the army, movies that take place in the middle east, and anything talking about or having to do with soldiers or war. Movies are fictional and hit too close to home, and the last thing I need is worrying about Adam in a situation that is so far from reality because it was made in Hollywood. It's just too difficult to separate out what is real and what is not. I know it's silly, but that is an easy way to cope right now.
That said Pan's Labyrinth is a war movie and it really speaks to the kind of community and environment that war creates and promotes. Despite all that the movie was amazing and moving. Very well done, the characters and costumes were perfect, so was the plot. Just far enough out there to be fantasy, but with enough tie in to be real. I have to say that in general I like foreign films because you aren't stuck with the typical "and they all lived happily ever after" ending. I like movies that get their message across without shoving it down your throat. I really like La Vita e Bella (Life is Beautiful), set in Italy in the same time period. Maybe it is because these wars are so far from me that it doesn't bother me and probably in 60 years people will feel the same way about the war in Iraq.
What really struck me about this movie is how unhappy everyone is. All the soldier are unhappy, obviously all the guerrillas are unhappy, one of the main characters talks about how miserable the world is, this movie seems to embody the sadness war creates. It is almost like all of the people except maybe the captain would rather be dead then be living in the misery that surrounds them. I wonder people in the middle east feel that way? How can you look forward to having a family and watching your children grow up when you live in fear of who you can trust? Or that a bomb could explode next to your house? How do people live that way on a day to day basis? I have heard it makes you numb, I hope I never find out.
I think that you can find some of these same themes in the Iraq war, just the unhappiness, the distrust, the confusion, having to choose polarized sides because there is no obvious middle ground, and having to do things that you don't agree with for your safety, I could go on and on.
Well thats what I think. I loved the movie, but it can be very sad, so as Adam would say, "It was a 3 tissue movie." I am sure the circumstance he lives in are different, but I think that it is safe to say I am feeling less worried about my day to day stuff, and the movie is beautiful, if you are up for a war movie.
I don't know about other army significant others, but I have basically sworn off all war movies, shows that talk about the army, movies that take place in the middle east, and anything talking about or having to do with soldiers or war. Movies are fictional and hit too close to home, and the last thing I need is worrying about Adam in a situation that is so far from reality because it was made in Hollywood. It's just too difficult to separate out what is real and what is not. I know it's silly, but that is an easy way to cope right now.
That said Pan's Labyrinth is a war movie and it really speaks to the kind of community and environment that war creates and promotes. Despite all that the movie was amazing and moving. Very well done, the characters and costumes were perfect, so was the plot. Just far enough out there to be fantasy, but with enough tie in to be real. I have to say that in general I like foreign films because you aren't stuck with the typical "and they all lived happily ever after" ending. I like movies that get their message across without shoving it down your throat. I really like La Vita e Bella (Life is Beautiful), set in Italy in the same time period. Maybe it is because these wars are so far from me that it doesn't bother me and probably in 60 years people will feel the same way about the war in Iraq.
What really struck me about this movie is how unhappy everyone is. All the soldier are unhappy, obviously all the guerrillas are unhappy, one of the main characters talks about how miserable the world is, this movie seems to embody the sadness war creates. It is almost like all of the people except maybe the captain would rather be dead then be living in the misery that surrounds them. I wonder people in the middle east feel that way? How can you look forward to having a family and watching your children grow up when you live in fear of who you can trust? Or that a bomb could explode next to your house? How do people live that way on a day to day basis? I have heard it makes you numb, I hope I never find out.
I think that you can find some of these same themes in the Iraq war, just the unhappiness, the distrust, the confusion, having to choose polarized sides because there is no obvious middle ground, and having to do things that you don't agree with for your safety, I could go on and on.
Well thats what I think. I loved the movie, but it can be very sad, so as Adam would say, "It was a 3 tissue movie." I am sure the circumstance he lives in are different, but I think that it is safe to say I am feeling less worried about my day to day stuff, and the movie is beautiful, if you are up for a war movie.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
All Over the Map.. literally!
I have been to Colorado, then Wyoming, then California, than Texas and I am heading home to Wyoming tomorrow.
Adam likes being able to get a hold of me on my cell phone and recently he has been able to because I have been in areas with cell reception. I went to California to visit my father for a business event, and then I went to Texas to start looking for an apartment. Texas is different, I am think I am experiencing culture shock which for me is hilarious. I am trying to choose between 2 apartments. I went to go look at one of the apartments today, and as I was backing out of a tight parking spot, someone else backed into me and because of a mix up at the car rental place, I didn't have the correct insurance information and the cop wrote me a ticket! Not a fun day. So I am not sure that is the apartment for me. It took so long that I didn't get a chance to look at the other apartment place again. That's a bummer.
So I have been going back and forth and back and forth. Too indecisive tonight. LOL.
Adam called me this morning (early) and we both kept falling asleep so it was sorta like he was here. We'd both snooze and wake up and ask the other in the sleepy voice if they were awake, then fall back asleep. So it was pretty low key. It is comforting when you get the little reminders that you are meant to be together. I am so thankful for these little reminders. When I really miss Adam I watch the 15 sec video I have of him being silly. It's the best, a god reminder of when we were together last. Without stuff like that I am not sure how I wold make it through the day.
MAUW CHICHEN
Adam likes being able to get a hold of me on my cell phone and recently he has been able to because I have been in areas with cell reception. I went to California to visit my father for a business event, and then I went to Texas to start looking for an apartment. Texas is different, I am think I am experiencing culture shock which for me is hilarious. I am trying to choose between 2 apartments. I went to go look at one of the apartments today, and as I was backing out of a tight parking spot, someone else backed into me and because of a mix up at the car rental place, I didn't have the correct insurance information and the cop wrote me a ticket! Not a fun day. So I am not sure that is the apartment for me. It took so long that I didn't get a chance to look at the other apartment place again. That's a bummer.
So I have been going back and forth and back and forth. Too indecisive tonight. LOL.
Adam called me this morning (early) and we both kept falling asleep so it was sorta like he was here. We'd both snooze and wake up and ask the other in the sleepy voice if they were awake, then fall back asleep. So it was pretty low key. It is comforting when you get the little reminders that you are meant to be together. I am so thankful for these little reminders. When I really miss Adam I watch the 15 sec video I have of him being silly. It's the best, a god reminder of when we were together last. Without stuff like that I am not sure how I wold make it through the day.
MAUW CHICHEN
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Fire and Ice
Ha You have to love Wyoming.
Last night I got to use my little cabin's wood stove for the first time of the season. I cleared away all the flammable things and did my fire starting thing. I think everyone has a bit of pyro in them and I am no exception. My wood stove is literally the smallest one they make. It is 8 x 12 x 14, but the space is so small that it is easy to have it 90 in there, if you really feed the fire. I have all these standards for fires. My most important standard is that you build it right so that you don't have to use any fire starter OR more then one match. Adam loves to watch me start fire in my stove because I love it and I get so intent getting it started and it becomes a personal validation thing. I cut my kindling just so. I end up almost singeing my eyebrows blowing on the fire. I end up covered in soot and smelling like smoke. He thinks I am funny.
So why this rant about how much we love wood fires? IT SNOWED LAST NIGHT! Like 4 inches, it's everywhere. As soon as I saw the snow start to accumulate I went got all the fire making supplies. It is pretty warm out -- in the 40s now, but I didn't let that stop me. I will cook in my house first. The snow will probably be all gone by the end of the week, but it is a reminder that winter is coming and I only have to survive winter, spring, and summer, then Adam comes home. :)
Last night I got to use my little cabin's wood stove for the first time of the season. I cleared away all the flammable things and did my fire starting thing. I think everyone has a bit of pyro in them and I am no exception. My wood stove is literally the smallest one they make. It is 8 x 12 x 14, but the space is so small that it is easy to have it 90 in there, if you really feed the fire. I have all these standards for fires. My most important standard is that you build it right so that you don't have to use any fire starter OR more then one match. Adam loves to watch me start fire in my stove because I love it and I get so intent getting it started and it becomes a personal validation thing. I cut my kindling just so. I end up almost singeing my eyebrows blowing on the fire. I end up covered in soot and smelling like smoke. He thinks I am funny.
So why this rant about how much we love wood fires? IT SNOWED LAST NIGHT! Like 4 inches, it's everywhere. As soon as I saw the snow start to accumulate I went got all the fire making supplies. It is pretty warm out -- in the 40s now, but I didn't let that stop me. I will cook in my house first. The snow will probably be all gone by the end of the week, but it is a reminder that winter is coming and I only have to survive winter, spring, and summer, then Adam comes home. :)
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Refresh
Today started out ogdable (horrible). I didn't sleep very well because I was anxious and I woke and the heat had gone off in m house and cabin so it was a steamy 56.8 degrees next to my bed. Not fun so I drug myself out of bed and started driving, I had a mishap with my credit card at the gas station. I have to figure out why its getting declined if the balance is good. Gotta call those (@(&!*&@ people.
I got to Colorado Springs about 1:30 a little apprehensive about seeing my old school and my professors. But once I got there it was sooooo nice to see friendly faces and I felt right at home again. It was tempting to want to move right back. I know I feel that way because it is something easy and familiar. I went to my doctors appointment which when well, then back to the school to meet with some other professors. Then back to my friend Re and her son, Nik's house (I used to child-watch for them), where we had a wonderful dinner (my favorite -- Chinese!). I called a friend from the computer science department to see if he wanted to go to a movie and we went to see Resident Evil 3. I was pretty scared. Afterwards I showed him my new IPOD Adam gave me and pictures of Adam's horse. He wasn't so into horse pictures, but he looked at them anyways. So then I came back to Re's house and I am in my bed room where I stayed when I broke my arm. It's a little ironic.
I feel way better having talked to my friends that I dearly missed and I didn't realize how much I did miss it all until today. I got a bunch of good feedback from people who know me pretty well and that was very worthwhile. I am glad I came and I can go back with a fresh outlook on life.
I love you Minaface
I got to Colorado Springs about 1:30 a little apprehensive about seeing my old school and my professors. But once I got there it was sooooo nice to see friendly faces and I felt right at home again. It was tempting to want to move right back. I know I feel that way because it is something easy and familiar. I went to my doctors appointment which when well, then back to the school to meet with some other professors. Then back to my friend Re and her son, Nik's house (I used to child-watch for them), where we had a wonderful dinner (my favorite -- Chinese!). I called a friend from the computer science department to see if he wanted to go to a movie and we went to see Resident Evil 3. I was pretty scared. Afterwards I showed him my new IPOD Adam gave me and pictures of Adam's horse. He wasn't so into horse pictures, but he looked at them anyways. So then I came back to Re's house and I am in my bed room where I stayed when I broke my arm. It's a little ironic.
I feel way better having talked to my friends that I dearly missed and I didn't realize how much I did miss it all until today. I got a bunch of good feedback from people who know me pretty well and that was very worthwhile. I am glad I came and I can go back with a fresh outlook on life.
I love you Minaface
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
This one's for the Mina
So today like the total dufus I am I thought Adam would go to bed at the regular time around 2-3pm. So I didn't log in to my messenger because I thought he would be asleep. Well when I finally log in around 6 PM I find out that he has been hanging around waiting for me all this time!?! I guess I should know that when he says,"Go back to sleep we can talk when you wake up, I have the day off," I should know that means he is not going to sleep until he talks to me. I know that deep down inside that sometimes he literally won't rest until we have communicated. His schedule is so whack I never know when he is going to be up or asleep. So before he very sleepily tottered to bed (I could only make him go to bed by telling him he won... now we know who really won ;) ) I promised him I would write him an update of my day.
MY DAY By Jenna Otto
I woke up this morning around nine and growled about being sleepy since I stayed up late and then received a phone call around where I berated King for his lack of appreciation for my cheeto finding ability. I drug myself out of bed and into clothes when my Stepmom showed up to take me to the hospital to get my XRAYs. At the hospital I realized I forgot my insurance card. SO when we went to the bone doctor I had to tell them I forgot it. They made us wait an hour to see the doctor! So Kathy lent me this REALLY REALLY good book called Look Me in the Eye. It's about a guy with Asberger's syndrome. Very Very Funny. So then they took 3 xrays of my hand and 3 xrays of my foot. We pronounced my foot smushed and my hand broken. Then off to Asian Cusine. Oh it was sooooo yummy. (Yellow Curry Mina!) Then to the ranch and I realized that I had screwed up a bunch of important appointments. Everything is scheduled tomorrow for me being Colorado AND me being in Wyoming. I only managed to call one of these people. That means I have a lot of frantic scurrying to do. Arg. Then we went to Riverton and dropped of my prescriptions for more drugs and waited for Rae and Sarah to get out of school. Then we went and got my prescriptions and went home to help Sarah with homework. We got this done around 9 PM YEAY~!!!! Then I came home and tried not to stress about all the stuff I have to do tomorrow. I am setting my alarm for 5:30 am. I need to leave by 7 am. Wish me luck. So yeah I listened to my messages, switched over some laundry, finished sweeping the floor, picked up some dishes, looked at the Mina care packages(including Kin's cheetos), and gave up on everything to come to bed. Here I am writing you. TA DA. I love you mauwmater. Thats the best update I can give you. I left out a list about buying books from Amazon for you and Rae and I called Leon Harrel and I saw CoriAnn and I talked to Sarah's teachers and umm yeah.
Now I am reading the Secret Life of Bees, something I saw Lala was reading as well.
Toodles Beautiful. I cant wait for you to get that book I read today, Look me in the Eye(John Robison). It's sooooooo sooooooo gooooddd.
Love from the Myna to the Mina-- MAUW
MY DAY By Jenna Otto
I woke up this morning around nine and growled about being sleepy since I stayed up late and then received a phone call around where I berated King for his lack of appreciation for my cheeto finding ability. I drug myself out of bed and into clothes when my Stepmom showed up to take me to the hospital to get my XRAYs. At the hospital I realized I forgot my insurance card. SO when we went to the bone doctor I had to tell them I forgot it. They made us wait an hour to see the doctor! So Kathy lent me this REALLY REALLY good book called Look Me in the Eye. It's about a guy with Asberger's syndrome. Very Very Funny. So then they took 3 xrays of my hand and 3 xrays of my foot. We pronounced my foot smushed and my hand broken. Then off to Asian Cusine. Oh it was sooooo yummy. (Yellow Curry Mina!) Then to the ranch and I realized that I had screwed up a bunch of important appointments. Everything is scheduled tomorrow for me being Colorado AND me being in Wyoming. I only managed to call one of these people. That means I have a lot of frantic scurrying to do. Arg. Then we went to Riverton and dropped of my prescriptions for more drugs and waited for Rae and Sarah to get out of school. Then we went and got my prescriptions and went home to help Sarah with homework. We got this done around 9 PM YEAY~!!!! Then I came home and tried not to stress about all the stuff I have to do tomorrow. I am setting my alarm for 5:30 am. I need to leave by 7 am. Wish me luck. So yeah I listened to my messages, switched over some laundry, finished sweeping the floor, picked up some dishes, looked at the Mina care packages(including Kin's cheetos), and gave up on everything to come to bed. Here I am writing you. TA DA. I love you mauwmater. Thats the best update I can give you. I left out a list about buying books from Amazon for you and Rae and I called Leon Harrel and I saw CoriAnn and I talked to Sarah's teachers and umm yeah.
Now I am reading the Secret Life of Bees, something I saw Lala was reading as well.
Toodles Beautiful. I cant wait for you to get that book I read today, Look me in the Eye(John Robison). It's sooooooo sooooooo gooooddd.
Love from the Myna to the Mina-- MAUW
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