Thursday, June 11, 2009

Temptation

"Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil....."

So I am in Vermont visiting my family and I spent a couple years here in high school so I am catching up with old friends and it is great to see them. I have friend that I was pretty close with when I lived here and her husband is a truck driver so he is a way a lot. We have another mutual friend that she hangs out with A LOT. He is funny and good looking, maybe gay -- maybe not we don't ask -- he dates girls occasionally, but is very talented and artistic, where as her husband is the strong, silent type. Very loyal, but not very charismatic.

Anyways a couple days ago her husband when out of town and both him and I were invited over to her house. They were very friendly and I had hung out with them earlier in the week as well, and they are always together, eating lunch and spending time at each other's house. Sometimes he will stay in her spare bedroom, because he lives a half an hour away and if he gets drunk he just stays over. They are huggy, but it doesn't seem like they are having an affair per se. People here in this community are very close to each other and have known each other since they were 4 and they are closer to each other than I am to alot of my friends. Their parents know each other and their grandparents know each other etc etc.

I don't know about you guys, but when Adam is away I am very careful how friendly I am with other men. I would not ever want to give anyone a reason to even suspect me of being unfaithful, and I honestly do not want to put my self in any sort of situation where one thing could lead to another. When I hang out with them I don't drink and I go home early. I feel like they think I am being sort of prudish, but I jsut can't risk anythign out of the ordinary. I get lonely really easily and I am not willing to take a risk for anyone to take advantage of that.

Do you guys think I am being silly? Does any one else feel this way when their husbanmd is gone? You think I am being too judgemental? Can they really be just friends?