Competent

Last night I didn't sleep well. I couldn't fall asleep (too much tea??). Then once I did fall asleep, Butthead rang! So I drug myself awake and talked for an hour and a half. We talked about horses and moving and me not talking much because I was tired. So around 2:30 I went back to sleep. Then he got back on at 5:30 and I was like NO! I am sleeping! Then I went back to sleep and he got on again at 8:30. I drug myself out of bed after 5 hours of sleep and took a shower.

Needless to say it was a struggle to get myself to work this morning. Once I got there I did some computer work and then I started to ride. The riding went great. I rode all 3 of my horses plus one of Leon's. My horses in training are making good progress and Leon seemed pleased with how I rode one of his horses. All in all I finally feel like I am becoming a competent rider. As I drove home today, I realized that the kind of progress and type of work I did today, I could do everyday. The amount of progress I made both riding and on the computer made me realize that if I couldn't do any better then exactly what I was doing right now it would be enough. A little computer work, work on my horses, get horses ready to go to horse shows. If I could get paid to do what I am doing right now I would keep doing it I think. I think it is enough for me. That's a new thing, I am not sure I have felt that way about anything in a long time. I am hoping that this feeling comes to me more and more in the next couple of years. I always have the sensation that I haven't accomplished enough, now for a brief moment I feel that I have hit some mental point that is relevant. What a weird feeling for me.

Next note, Leon's birthday is tomorrow and I am going to make him a cake. It just seems far away to go get the regular coke to make coca cola cake. Yum Yum. 5 hours of sleep isn't helping.

To lovely, you are very welcome for the comment. Now if i could figure out how to get my regular views to comment more ::pokes viewers::.


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