Acceptance

Being an army girlfriend is about acceptance. I think that God sits up there and laughs when he sees me every day. He sees me struggle with accepting what ever Adam and the army throws my way. I am not the kind of person who is a follower and just goes with the flow. I like to influence the flow.

When we started dating Adam said to me,"You can't get mad at me for things I can't control." What he means is, you have to accept the punches the army with throw if you want to date me. I agreed to do that. I agreed to accept his crazy schedules. I agreed to wake up at 2 am to talk to him.

You have to accept these things because if you don't you will go crazy. It's not like there is anything you can do to change it. I accept that when I get up in the morning and he is not online that I have to move forward with my day. I accept that he will get lonely and upset and that there won't be jack I can do to cheer him up. I accept that he will get really close to his army buddies in ways that we will never be close.

I get it that he is tired and misses me and is grumpy about something non-important. I am not going to apologize for living the way I do, but I do try to listen to his concerns even when the seem unreasonable to me. I don't he thinks that they are unreasonable. I accept that his doubts and fears are very real to him and that there isn't a whole lot I can do to ease those fears anymore than I already have. I understand that even though he doesn't always seem to appreciate the things I feel I would like to be appreciated for, he doesn't do it from a place of malice or ill will. You have to accept the Army and the lifestyle as best you can. If you love someone there you don't really have a choice. The Army doesn't give you a choice and neither does love. So you have to accept the person exactly as the come and with their army baggage whatever that may be.