Letters

There is only one thing kinda sorta remotely out there that could possible be construed as being good about Adam being away. The letters. When he takes the time to write me letters they are so thoughtful and sweet and deep it amazes me. He cherishes writing to me and doing the little things that make me happy even though he is far away. This makes every agonizing moment without him worth it.

Even the fact that he has to wait and work more than he normally would makes us stronger. We are stronger about our commitments to each other, and more careful about hurting our relationship. We both know how precious this is to us and we both are working harder then if he wasn't in Iraq. I don't know if he was here that he would be as attentive to really putting into words whats on his mind. The letters I get are a small glimpse into his thoughts and dreams. It is pretty amazing to me that he can share himself like that with me. it makes us both appreciative of what we have. It is more obvious how hard we are working to please the other.

I am a really a card sending person. I love sending cards and I buy bunches of cards to send and dole them out slowly. Adam has managed to pick up on this and has started to send me cards! They are adorable. Every time I see a card in the mail I get this huge smile on my face and have to restrain myself from jumping up and down. I know it's a silly reaction, but I can't help it. It's crazy.

Anyways, the letters are the bright beams of light in the fog. I feel guilty because I have a lot I could write in the letters, but I have such a hard time staying awake and writing them lately so I have been a bad girlfriend and has not been keeping up with my letter writing. Though to be fair I am churning out the care packages. I have this care package radar developing. I am always on the look out for things I could put in a care package. It's pretty funny.