The Pancake Experiment

OK so this morning while Adam was sleeping I got up because I couldn't sleep. It was 6:30 and an hour and a half LATER then when I usually get up.

So I bought blueberries on sale (and felt slightly guilty because they were obviously imported from somewhere warmer-- so much for eating locally) and when I asked Adam if he liked blueberries (because there is hardly any food that you can actually grow that he likes) and he said, "I like blueberries in pancakes." I said ok and threw two cartons in the cart. i took one to work and the other I made into pancakes this morning.

I have this thing about doing "the best" thing or being really "efficient." I wasn't sure whether the non stick would cook the pancakes better or my All Clad Copper core frying pan (it's from a set I stole from my Dad) would cook them better. When I make pancakes here is what always happens. The first batch is just a little under cooked, the second round is burned and the third is okay, but no one wants any more cuz they are full.

Well after cooking pancakes on the 2 pans side by side, I would have to say that although the non stick pan easier to clean up, the all clad pan seems to cook them more evenly and won this round.

I finally woke Adam up and force fed him lots of pancakes. :: evil::

He is pretty sore from all the army pt stuff. He layed on the floor in the living room for a while whining about how much her hurt. :P I made him do dishes anyways.... :D

We are enjoying our one day off watching television. :)

Pruis

So for those of you who don't know. I crashed Adam's prius. I totalled it. Apparently everything that is expensive on a prius is in the left corner of the car. So if you are going to wreck on, wreck the right side.

No one got hurt beyond my pride. I wasn't paying enough attention and I was looking down at the radio and I looked up and there was a truck stopped in front of me. I rear ended it and then it hit another truck. Bad News Bears. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO the insurance is going to cover it. Adam and I aren't sure what we are going to do. Right now we are sharing a car. It sucks.

Since I started a new job that starts at 6 am. I am working at a company called WatchMeGrow.com and if you log in and watch the demo you can see the back of me at work all day long. So I am working 40 hours a week in addition to my yarn business which I could easily work at 50 -60 hours a week. Needless to say Adam is not pleased with me working so much. I have about 10 hours worht of work before bed. Needless to say I am not going to get to it. I could get off my lazy butt and dye the last bit of yarn, but i am not going to. Maybe I will go to bed and get a jump on tomorrow?

Politics at Adam's job aren't making me very happy and I am hoping things clear up soon. Recently there was an incident that involved Adam going to the MP station in handcuffs and when all the proper commanders were called in (off leave so you can imagine how happy they were), Adam was walking out free and clear while the accuser was stripped of rank and in cuffs himself. Anyways what was suppoed to be morning work turned into all day work. Not fun.

Things are good, Adam and I have a new addition to the family, we have a dog now his name is Scouter. He is sheltie, he is a present from my mother. He and Adam have been fast friends and he sleeps with us every nite..... He is awfully cute.

I can't even get to a point anyways. UGH, nighto nighto

Happy Beleated Thanksgiving!

No I haven't forgotten about you.
Adam and I went to visit Adam's Family for T-Day and we had a good time. Granted we didn't do a whole lot. I sat in front of the TV and knitted and Adam sat in front of the tv and played WoW. I think they were disappointed we didn't do more, but we were so happy to have a break.

I started a new job at a customer service place from 6 am to 8 am and I really like getting up when he does. I can do my yarn business stuff after words. While we were on vacation my horses decided to break out and led my friend who was watching them on wild chase that took up most the day. Apparently the electric fence had come unplugged. Not good.

We had a lot of fun and ate a TON of food on vacation. I can feel myself getting wider. Time to hit the gym. I told myself I would be less busy this time of year and I just seem to get busier and busier. I have no idea how this happens. I am not even caught up in holiday stuff. Yet. Anyways.
I'll write more later.

Busy

Is really not an excuse I know. We have internet at the new house, but I am really in hiding from the world mode. Only Adam's computer is really set up. I think we are going to use one of my old computers as a server and send back ups and stuff like that to it so that should be a lot of fun or at least interesting.

Still in negotiations over where we are going to put everything. Adam seems to think the dining room table is a good place, but I think that it is a very bad place. Go Figure. Mainly because I cannot see the TV and because only one computer fits. Hmmmm. I think we are going to turn our second living room into a gaming room. That way we don't spend all of our time in the computer room. We hardly ever used our living room in the old house. I think we really like this new house. I think it will work out well. Even if it is a little decrepit. Ok a lot decrepit. It'll work for now.

News with me: I have a job interview and the yarn business is going well. Everything is messy now, but once we get the bookshelves in it won't be so bad. We will have places for things at least.

Another thing I have noticed is that I am way more sensitive to violent and scary things then I ever was before. I was watching Silence of the Lambs this morning and I have seen it before, but I seemed more affected this time then I have in the past. I couldn't tell you why, I don't know. I have noticed that horror movies and scary stories don't seem like as much fun as they used too. I never watch anything even remotely military anymore. :: shrug:: Just one of those things I guess.

Hope all is well with you guys.

Proud

I wrote this a couple days ago, but I don't have internet in the new house yet. I talked to Qwest and after talking to a Qwest costumer service girl who was convinced that Qwest didn't operate in my area (even though that is what they had before). She told me to call back later to talk to someone else and maybe they could help me. I called my property manager and asked him if he knew what was available. Apparently, he knows someone who works at Quest and she called me back like 10 minutes later and assured me that there was Quest in that area and got me a good deal.

Ugh. The 6th - 10th. Can't wait.


---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I don't know what it is about men in the army that holds such an allure. I love Grey's Anatomy and the new Army surgeon they have on the show is cool. He really embodies the things that I love about Adam's Armyness. He is confident and sure in his training and knows he can do the job he set out to do and is committed to the end of the mission. As much as I dislike some army things that is something I really like. Adam says I like to be on base because it makes me feel important. I guess that is partly true. I like to be on base because some part of me feels like I am contributing to our country and I am very proud not only that Adam is soldier, but a damn good soldier.

He is meticulous and goes the extra mile in his job. He takes his duty very seriously. It is more than just a job, as it for many soldiers. I am happy that he takes pride in his work. I mean I don't fight and I am not trained in anything, but in some small way I feel like I get to contribute.

Adam and I went to Issa's wedding and he wore his "special army outfit" and he showed me and explained all his medals and ribbons. I have never really thought about all the stuff he accomplished in Iraq. It blew me away. Adam is not the sort of person who talks about his accomplishments, so I feel special knowing that he wanted to show me and wanted to explain it all to me. He was so handsome in his outfit. So very handsome. Maybe thats part of the allure. I do love him so.

I am too tired to make anymore sense. I am so worn out. Adam makes me end my day, when he is not around I feel like the day never ends. I never want to sleep. I am a different animal when he is not around. Both good things and bad things. I need a haircut and to see a dentist.

What to say?

I have been trying to be more upbeat lately. ESPECIALLY after being called "A Negative Nancy" by someone who shall remain nameless.

I know I don't need to be so stress out about everything that is going on, I mean yeah it sucks that he is gone and yeah some things are stressful, but all in all I am very fortunate to have such a wonderful man in my life.

Lala, when I read your suggestion of bath time, I thought, WHAT A GREAT idea, and poured a tubby and jumped in. I was much calmer after that.

I think me time is a big struggle for me. I feel like I don't take enough and like I take to much all at the same time. How much me time is appropriate? I mean I am not even sure why I am writing when I could be playing WoW? Or playing with the new XBox (they are on sale at the px!) Or watching a movie? Or mixing up dyes for tomorrow morning? I mean I have a whole week to figure that out so I can try an be less "negative" next week. Fun Fun.

At some point ... crap Adam just called I need to run him over some stuff to the base... laters

So.. worn.. out

I am heading to bed, I have been wanting to write in my blog forever. As well as ride my horses. But I can't because I am busy. Too busy. Always too busy. Letting the important stuff go.

Normally I let Adam's work sort of dictate my schedule. However tonight he is not coming home because he has to stay at WLC. So he is not here to tell me to come to bed. This is the first night I have had to spend alone in our apartment since he came home from Iraq and I feel like I am just falling apart. I don't want any sympathy bids. Nothing anyone can say is going to make me feel better. By the time most of you read I will already feel better. I wonder if this total panic about him not being here will ever go away.

I have slept alone since he has been home, but it has been because I am traveling not because I am home alone. Nothing like being home alone with too much time to yourself to make you wonder how you got here. What a strange feeling.

Mostly I feel tired, headachy, hot, and cranky. I hope I am not getting sick, that would definitely explain why I feel like crap though. Usually I just put up with it until he comes home and then I do feel like a million dollars. Last night he sang the song from Top Gun, you have lost that loving feeling to get me to give him a kiss. He makes me so happy when he is here.

But when he is not I am at a total loss. Not only am I pretty sure that's not very healthy, but it makes me feel pretty crazy and codependent. I am definitely feeling angry. Very angry.

Mostly I am tired of being nicey- nice to people. I am pretty much at the point where I totally understand why people go on shooting sprees and kill everyone for no reason. There is no good explaination. Anyways, tomorrow morning I hope I feel better, less angry. Mostly I am angry at myself for being pushed into these shitty positions where there is no way out but to explode. If I could tell everyone in my life how stupid and insane they are maybe I would feel better. Something is going to have to give. Tomorrow Adam will be home and things that seemed really confusing and angry making will make more sense. I hope.